May is coming to an end :)

It's plus minus a week before May ends? hehe, well, another month ends and another yet to begin. i was having a conversation with mum when i got back from teaching earlier. indeed, i used to do that a lot back then. especially before i made that particular guy become my center of universe. i feel kind of well, you can say ashamed that i made him my very priority back then. i let him affect my mood, my habit, my pattern and bla bla bla. seriously,  i locked myself a lot in my room back then because i only wanted to sleeeepppp and not to think how he made me miserable. Lol. okay look, he is not a bad guy i suppose, it's just.. i don't know. hopefully he won't treat the next girl the way he treated me, takes her for granted the way he did to me.

Ohh crap, enough about that particular dearest. lol. anyway, i was saying about me and my mum talking earlier. hehe. well, i was telling her how i once kind of dislike a person and suddenly now that person somehow becomes one of the favorites ;) she said andang cematu, things work out that way somehow. the people we love become the ones we hate somehow and vice versa. people that are nice to us initially can do the opposite things later on and ect etc. and i spontaneously said "aku sayang mama jua, inda berubah pun". she just said "atu lain"

i know i was giving a silly answer earlier but then it it is true. anything may change and i should never be sure about things but this one fact that i love her, that would never change. :) she may not be the best or greatest person in the whole universe but she is the best for me, for us. and we. the children, ought to appreciate her. i wish i can say how i feel err ashamed now that i let some guy put a barrier between us. well, i should never repeat the same mistake again =) insya Allah =)

next next... ummmmmm, i'm going out for a movie on this coming thurs and yeah, i really want to have a pleasant time. i'm going out with a friend i never met and yeah that is some sort of new to me and well, maybe it is a bit late for me to 'explore' things but yeah i wanna do certain things i never did before. not messing, i'm just going out. that is all. okay it seems i am making quite a fuss bout it, but hey, i just never went out with a person i never met before so yeah... lol. i'm not really making a big deal out of it because i really just want to have some good time and my sister kind of said something that makes me, well, think.. briefly she just does not want me to get into trouble bla bla bla, i was not or am not reporting to her but yeah i got the tendency to attract trouble and cause mess so yeah. okay i am definitely bluffing now! =)

and i think i talk quite a lot so yeah better stop? nyeh nyeh. when was the last time i talked this much? :p

anyho, good night and As Salam =)

good good day! err, i mean Night :P

oh yeah, coming Fri, movie with family, most prolly Pirates Of Caribbean :D *woot woot