Get It Right! :)

Assalamualaikum. Past few days, or was it weeks? , I have been feeling so depressed. I can't promise that I am not getting back to that uno momento of mine but alhamdullilah I feel sorta better today. There are still worries and uncertainties but hey I need to learn to stop worrying too much. Life is inevitable. No matter how bad I want it to be the way I want it to be... it is really out of my control. I cannot take control of stuffs. I need to learn to imply that to my life. Worrying too much is never healthy. Perhaps I am feeling this quite positive because I met him last night. I don't know. I am not saying all the negativeness is gone. It is still there. But Yuhana you need to get rid of those negativeness or you won't be able to really live your life. I am not good at balancing things. But I got to. I really need to go with the flow. That saying 'Only dead fish goes with the flow', I need to get rid of it. I have been taking it wayy to serious. Like I fe...

People that you thought you knew... people you thought you could rely on when you need them, people that you thought won't judge you... these people... what if you thought you had them and then turnt out you were wrong? It is heart breaking right? Alright, heart breaking might be a bit too much too use. But yeah... I guess apart from dissapointment, anger, frustration and yada yada, heart breaking is indeed one of these emotions. I am not quite independent you see, I mean I am definitely NOT keen to bother or be a nuisance to people.. Not if I could help it. But yes, that does not change the fact that I am indeed a nuisance to people around me even if I do not mean it. And I am very sensitive at particular stuffs. Right, I am mumbling. It is just... I think I take certain people for granted. and it becomes... how do I say it? inconvenient? Sigh. There is something nagging me. like suddenly I feel a bit lonely despite there are people around me. i am not quite at ease. there ar...