i believe music and watching some dance thingy would cheer me up. improve my mood. i was getting some emotion boost up before typing this and somehow gave up. i slept in my room last night, like after a month plus not sleeping there? and i am not sure whether i had any dream with him in it. lol yet i did dream of daniel. the only network 21 i seem to be okay with. he is a bit okay. daniel is friendly and i did sincerely laugh at his jokes. well i can't be sure that he was having the mutual respect for me back then. lol. anyhow in my dream he was saying to me that Z was being silly and stubborn and he did not have anything to do with the break up thingy. lol. as if. i know somehow people like daniel is not to be trusted but he was nice to me after all. i know. gullible much.
i know what happened to me was not the worst of all. there are whole bunch of other people who had it worst than me. and yes i am grateful. but then it doesn't really change the fact that i was hurt. for my family's, other's and my sake i will move on. i know putting too much effort in doing so would be to no avail. you know they say that not to try too hard? lolness. i don't know when but somehow i just know i'd be entirely and really okay. insya Allah. i thought i was ready..that i unblocked him and i hate to admit seeing his pic somehow pinch my heart? err lol. i tried to block him again and i could not just yet. lol. after 48 hours i will surely block him again. it seems unreasonable but i just think i have to do it. lol ness
what else? last thursday i went out with a guy. not a date, it was okay, quite simple. we didn't actually talk much. for one thing i came late. was talking to ka nuran that i barely noticed it was 7ish already. movie started at 7.50pm and i came at around 740ish? so yeah, we did not have the time to get to know each other. and after the movie ended i chose to go home so that was it. he is okay. kind of nice =)
yesterday i watched Pirates Of Carribean with family and i like it. tehee. Captain Jack Sparrow is awesome as ever :P
Okay i think i'm done blogging for now. Have a good day people =)
i know what happened to me was not the worst of all. there are whole bunch of other people who had it worst than me. and yes i am grateful. but then it doesn't really change the fact that i was hurt. for my family's, other's and my sake i will move on. i know putting too much effort in doing so would be to no avail. you know they say that not to try too hard? lolness. i don't know when but somehow i just know i'd be entirely and really okay. insya Allah. i thought i was ready..that i unblocked him and i hate to admit seeing his pic somehow pinch my heart? err lol. i tried to block him again and i could not just yet. lol. after 48 hours i will surely block him again. it seems unreasonable but i just think i have to do it. lol ness
what else? last thursday i went out with a guy. not a date, it was okay, quite simple. we didn't actually talk much. for one thing i came late. was talking to ka nuran that i barely noticed it was 7ish already. movie started at 7.50pm and i came at around 740ish? so yeah, we did not have the time to get to know each other. and after the movie ended i chose to go home so that was it. he is okay. kind of nice =)
yesterday i watched Pirates Of Carribean with family and i like it. tehee. Captain Jack Sparrow is awesome as ever :P
Okay i think i'm done blogging for now. Have a good day people =)
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