Get It Right! :)

Assalamualaikum... It is getitng to the end of 2018, another book closing and we have approximately 3 weeks to for the end chapter Alhamdullillah, i am learning to be more positive these days. I am learning to ignore people and things that drive me crazy.  Most importantly, I am learning to be tawakal, to put my outmost trust on Allah and His plan. I have been worried with Ajwad's development. And now I  am putting my trust on Allah. I pray Ajwad and Inara grow up healthily, normally and jadi anak anak yang soleh dan solehah. Ummi inda minta anak anak Ummi jadi genius, cukup tah membesar jadi anak anak yang normal, sihat and kuat agama.  My children is the main reason and main reminder to not to let myself be affected by people and things. I need to remember I dont have control on people's attitude and behaviour, no matter how illogical or nonsense they seem to . I keep on telling myself that it is okay, as long as our hak inda kena ambil or being used.  I ...

Assalamualaikum. So yeah, i recently feared i had colon cancer and that is not the case. Yet unfortunately i am having hypethyroid.  It is not life threatening but it is indeed something serious.   What saddens me and bother me i that i got it after i delivered inara.  Not right away but yes during that time after.  Im not sad because of Inara.  I was sad, depressed back then. I was not stress because of my children. No. It was selfish people.  Im not gonna rant everything here but really are you guys happy now that you actually affect my health?  Didnt you understand that i needed my husband to be around that time?  The presence of Amah inda sama like having your own husband.  I needed the mental support back then.  Why could not you be considerate?  😓 and what did i do so wrong that "tapi yuhana banyak tu complain ku dgr"? . are you that perfect?  I could point out many of your flaws. Your illogical attitude. ...

Assalamualaikum. I, again have let this blog go to rust 😂. I have millions of things i wanna say. And i cant bring them all out now.  Anyway, big news, I gave birth to my second bundle of joy on 5th June 2018 @9.45 am. I safely delivered a beautiful princess ; Dk Alisha Inara Ramadhina. Umi sayang alai and abang. I really hope you two would grow healthy and jadi anak anak yang soleh dan solehah. Amiin ❤ I only decided to do this brief update after finding my picture and my name mentioned on a friend's blog. Ham, I know u wont read this but i do miss you and the others. I know at the moment you've changed. I mean good change btw. I am sorry I was one of your friends who did not stop you from going astray back then. I only meant to accept you for who  you are. I miss our friendship. My dad loved you remember? And i used to bring up your name if we want to jalan so he would let me. I wish you are well Ham! I was a bit sad when u didnt come to my wedding. And it was awkward...