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I wish Mom will get well. I wish mom to be as healthy as she used to. Mom and things have really got me thinking how life has changed much for me. I know I know, change, it is inevitable. I went back to Zumba with Jonathan yesterday with Kaka Nurul.. and yes class with him felt really right. I had a chat with Kaka Nuurul. She showed my a picture of my mom and my sister on her graduation day. I felt a pang of sadness. No, it was not because I didn't get invited to the graduation thing. It was.. the sight of my mom. She looked different, thinner and...sick... I hate seeing her like that. I really want her to be healthy. I know it is out of my control. My mom... she is an asset.. The only asset that could never be replaced. I could cope with my dad's death but losing my mom, I could not... I do not want to imagine life without her. Ma... please be strong... No one is ever going to love us the way you do. You deserve way better children than us. I know I am not the best..but please...

Hi and Assalamualaikum, it is the second week of January and though belated, Happy New Year people! May this year be a gracious and better year for everyone. Honestly I didn't have a good start on the very first day of 2015. That I was somehow dreading that my 2015 gonna be a bad year. Nauzubillah. I should not think that day. Never ever! ;) I have 300 plus of blank pages to fill in. I was looking through my pictures on FB just now. Those pictures back in 2011. My gawdd~ I was a lot thiiner back then. My not so little siblings were so small back then. They look different now. This might be a LOL but yeah watching them grow makes me feel like I am a parent. I am not a perfect sister for them. I love them dearly. I know I am not giving my best to them. Insya Allah I'd fix what can be fixed. Insya Allah :) I was so active back then. I went hiking and attended Zumba classes a lot. Gah I kinda miss those moments. Miss that Yuhana. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful with who I...