Get It Right! :)

 It hurts a lot when someone you love, you care about told you that you are stressing them out I actually  had a lot to say but in the end i just wanna crawl on bed and cry my heart  out, which I did but only helped the slightest bit.  I have two small kids to think of, otherwise there are times I wish I could just go somewhere and clear off my mind I know i am very dramatic, and I just wish I am with a person who understands that well and accept me instead of letting me feel stupid or insane for being the way I am. I miss my mom, even my dad. I was not really fond of Babah back then, but there are some points where I thought if he is still around, he will not let me get bullied, being taken for granted. It bings grieve to my heart to think I have no home to turn back to, no parents to take me back if I am no longer needed. It is a childish wish, but I wish I could turn back time and live differently, make a different choice. It is tiring emotionally at times that I ...

 Assalamualaikum 2021- No post at all I went through quickly and briefly on my blog back in 2010 and below. I surely talked a lot back then.  There are times these days I thought I might have wanted to live my life differently.  I was not proud of myself, I did not think I have lived my life to the fullest.  I was always and well still am, insecure.  I wished I had went to places and not busy thinking of getting hitched with anyone.  I wish I had lived to the fullest of life, laughed like there was no tomorrow I wish I had loved myself more than love of the idea of finding fairy tale love Regrets? I am not sure. Regretting might seem like I am questioning Qadha and Qadar, questioning fate. But yes, I just wished I could go back to my younger self and tell her what to do more back then.  To spend more time with Mama, travel more with friend or alone To see more of the beauty of life I understand now, to find someone who would truly love you, you  h...