Get It Right! :)

the title is very much dramatic yet it is indeed inspiring right? hehe. Lol ness. Alright, good good things so far.. well, we finished our external exam on Thursday and the result was announced earlier. Alhamdullilah I got an A for my written and B for my clinical assessment. I could not expect more :D And somehow i am bit satisfied with myself that though the break up thingy happened just a week before my exam and i seriously thought i would not make it back then, i eventually managed to get good grades. Alhamdullilah and somehow now i see the break up thingy was indeed for GOOOD. And yes now i am saying i am not regretting to lose him. not now that i knew bits of the things he said to my usu. seriously i would never have thought any guy would be that... well such a coward and 'cheap' to say those things to my usu. i totally totally felt betrayed when i found that out and when i know some more stuffs he said i just can't help to think that he is such a loser. seriously d...

i miss you and i wish i can terminate you completely from my mind. i miss you and think of you though i know well you do not feel or do the same way i do. *sigh alright, i'll be okay. i will insya Allah

We had our written exam with Miss Mabel Slatter this morning and alhamdullilah it was sort of okay. i just hope to get good marks for it. i hope all of us do well in that paper, amiin :D I texted my mum earlier asking her to wish me luck and pray for me. hehe and for the first time ever i didn't get answer like 'if belajar andang sanang'. hehe. that was touching indeed. and my usu told me to focus on my exam and nothing else and well, i don't know. i am quite touched :') i feel like a lost kid finding her way home again. i hope i am indeed finding way back home for real this time. slowly i will :) insya Allah:) Now i just have to focus on my viva exam. and coming monday would be my first time doing RP and yeah i kind of feel worried that i am not getting good practices on root planning. oh well, be positive and insya Allah i, we all, can do it :D next two weeks we'll be seeing much of Ms Mabel and that is kind of fun. she's cute and adorable. not quite...

Tomorrow we are going to have a big exam. external written exam and i don't know. time flies quite fast. tehee. it feels like yesterday i was dreading for the exams. and here i am, here we are are. less than 24 hours to go for the exam. may all of us do well tomorrow. Amiin :) And it is a full week of me being without him. and alhamdullilah im doing good and better. all those good times are the only thing that is holding me back yet somehow i know i am indeed accepting the fact that we are no longer together. it didn't end pretty properly yet hey no regrets. i haven't  truly found out what are the things that he said or manner he show to my uncle that it is now forbidden to see each other. i might get pretty mad or upset once i found out and right now i should not worry about it. exam. and please ya Allah may it not be that tough to move on. Amiin :) if it is not meant to be then it is not. been living in denial for quite a while and yes, move on Yuhana, slowly and sinc...

it finally ends. i have been searching for words to say and i kept on pressing 'backspace' for quite a while. i'm still digesting the whole things. i'm sad. yet i know i gotta be strong. i'll break down as i move on. that is no question.i still love him, that is not a question too but if he insisted to treat me in such ways, why would i stay. i am just a bug for him. a distraction. i just really cannot see the sense in making such a deal with me. i'm mad. yes, it would have been easier to be mad instead of upset if only i do not love him. Ya Allah, please give me the strength to move on. 'time and family and friends would help in healing such a wound' :') thanks to fam n C3 :')