Age, Time, Life

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I went through quickly and briefly on my blog back in 2010 and below. I surely talked a lot back then. 

There are times these days I thought I might have wanted to live my life differently. 

I was not proud of myself, I did not think I have lived my life to the fullest. 

I was always and well still am, insecure. 

I wished I had went to places and not busy thinking of getting hitched with anyone. 

I wish I had lived to the fullest of life, laughed like there was no tomorrow

I wish I had loved myself more than love of the idea of finding fairy tale love

Regrets? I am not sure. Regretting might seem like I am questioning Qadha and Qadar, questioning fate.

But yes, I just wished I could go back to my younger self and tell her what to do more back then. 

To spend more time with Mama, travel more with friend or alone

To see more of the beauty of life

I understand now, to find someone who would truly love you, you  have to love yourself first

I was wrong to think I should give more , I should love more so I would receive the unconditional one

Life is sadly not a fairy tale, some have their rezeki to feel that kind of love, life I sought

This is my fate

I know I love you more than you do

I know I am not over that childish dream to get my own knight of armour- this is not happening of course. 

I just wish I had lived, I had chosen differently. But again this is my takdir

I wish my Inara would live her life to the fullest

I wish my Inara would love herself more than the idea of falling in love

I wish my Inara would get her own happiness

My Princess, live yourself to the fullest,laugh like there is no tomorrow, find a man who love you more than you love him

Mommy love you and Abg Ajwad <3

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