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Assalamualaikum. Again I have been meaning to post some updates but had only left this blog to rust instead. I noticed I had three unpost so called updates last year. And none had any content yet. Lol. So yes, last year I did not post anything.
Anyway, I have become a mother. A mother, yes a mother. Just another phase that I have entered and makes me realize more how I am getting old and how people surrounding me are aging too. Lol. Aging is kind of scarry. Alhamdullillah, I gave born to my little prince on 25th December 2016 at 6.52 am. He came out earlier that his due date and it was not really a big surprise thinking how active I was when I was bearing him. The first few weeks were quite depressing to be honest. He got his jaundice and he had to be injected for antibiotic and blood sample every day. I cried a lot. Which mother would not seeing her little one suffered through those things. T.T so a week in the hospital was really depressing.without my mom and my husband, I guess I would have been lost.
When we were discharged came the depressing moment with the pantang magigy, constipation, I suddenly got lumps on my breast area and honestly it tested my relationship with my husband. I was worried and quite depressed but alhamdullillah things are looking brighter now.
I guess I will stop now. I actually meant to rant anout few other things. But I guess I could do that next time. ;)
Last but not least, Ajwad anak Umi, I love you very much. May Allah grant alai with good health, prosper and grace. Semoga membesar jadi anak yg taat. Amiin. To
my husband, we are not perfect , I had my flaws and there are times that I feel not happy with things that you do but alhamdullillah I could not ask a better husband than you. There are times I wanted to apologise but I could not say it. I thought of leaving you notes telling you how sorry I am sometimes and how I am thankful to have you. Thank you Abi.. I love you very much.
And there is my mom, a woman I owe a lot. I could not imagine life without her... I did her wrongs lots of time. Yes no woman,no one would love you as much as our own mother does. I once prioritised another woman more than her. I regretted it. Things were sweeter initially with the other woman but well, i did detest her now. I am thankful...sincerely thankful because if it did not turn out the way it did I would never realise how my mother lovws me despite my imperfections.
Haa. See i meant to stop but went on ranting instead.
Last but not least, I had been holding grudges and feeling bitter,like real bitter to.certain people for quite sometime. And I guess I am slowly letting go the bitterness. Not for their sake but for my own inner peace. Trust me, I am struggling with it. Lol. I quickly told myself to sangka baik baik when I started to feel annoyed 😂.
And last piece, may 2017 be a better and a more meaningful year. Amiin
xoxo
Anyway, I have become a mother. A mother, yes a mother. Just another phase that I have entered and makes me realize more how I am getting old and how people surrounding me are aging too. Lol. Aging is kind of scarry. Alhamdullillah, I gave born to my little prince on 25th December 2016 at 6.52 am. He came out earlier that his due date and it was not really a big surprise thinking how active I was when I was bearing him. The first few weeks were quite depressing to be honest. He got his jaundice and he had to be injected for antibiotic and blood sample every day. I cried a lot. Which mother would not seeing her little one suffered through those things. T.T so a week in the hospital was really depressing.without my mom and my husband, I guess I would have been lost.
When we were discharged came the depressing moment with the pantang magigy, constipation, I suddenly got lumps on my breast area and honestly it tested my relationship with my husband. I was worried and quite depressed but alhamdullillah things are looking brighter now.
I guess I will stop now. I actually meant to rant anout few other things. But I guess I could do that next time. ;)
Last but not least, Ajwad anak Umi, I love you very much. May Allah grant alai with good health, prosper and grace. Semoga membesar jadi anak yg taat. Amiin. To
my husband, we are not perfect , I had my flaws and there are times that I feel not happy with things that you do but alhamdullillah I could not ask a better husband than you. There are times I wanted to apologise but I could not say it. I thought of leaving you notes telling you how sorry I am sometimes and how I am thankful to have you. Thank you Abi.. I love you very much.
And there is my mom, a woman I owe a lot. I could not imagine life without her... I did her wrongs lots of time. Yes no woman,no one would love you as much as our own mother does. I once prioritised another woman more than her. I regretted it. Things were sweeter initially with the other woman but well, i did detest her now. I am thankful...sincerely thankful because if it did not turn out the way it did I would never realise how my mother lovws me despite my imperfections.
Haa. See i meant to stop but went on ranting instead.
Last but not least, I had been holding grudges and feeling bitter,like real bitter to.certain people for quite sometime. And I guess I am slowly letting go the bitterness. Not for their sake but for my own inner peace. Trust me, I am struggling with it. Lol. I quickly told myself to sangka baik baik when I started to feel annoyed 😂.
And last piece, may 2017 be a better and a more meaningful year. Amiin
xoxo
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