Officially a WIFE~ ;)

Aminurshahrin & Siti Yuhana

12.10.2014

Queen of my heart 03.10.2014

Alhamdullillah, I am eventually yours, legally and halal-ly <3

Majlis berbedak & Reception 12.10.14

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There, I am officially a wife. A wife to a man I've only known for a while yet who knows me inside out, well almost ;). And I did wish it was gonna be this year but was not really expecting my wish to be true. We both have been feeling as if we have known each other pretty much longer than we actually have. :)

Married life? It's...well.. I can only say it in a word ; reality . I am not complaining nor saying it is wonderful over the moon. Lol. It is just a reality. A reality where you can find narrated in few novels and some are modified into a more wonderful and some sorrowful ones. But so far my marriage is has been... reality. My relationship with Abi has indeed improved. We argue less and I will say he handles my so called tantrum or moodyy-ness better. I love him more and more each day. ;) xx

Next.. hmmph, I am not on talking term with my sister. This happened once before, i mean the long term not talking to each other. It went for about 2 months last time? I can't really remember.  Anyway I am just pretty much certain that it is gonna be more than two months this time. At this rate I can't say how we are going to be okay at all.  I don't wanna go into details. Not because I am a saint to cover her rudeness and yada yada but it is just going to make me resentful and angrier. It does not improve when it is only me against her. I mean it is bad enough that I cannot stand her but when everyone..well almost and most of the times expect me to be the understandable one, and when they act as if I have gone over the border line it makes me.. resentful and sort of lonely. My sister does not appear to feel guilty or bad for the things she has done and said so screw it. I strongly hope karma will do its job. 

Talking about lonely.. I don't really feel that I am a lonely person. No. I do have people around me. But there are at times when I feel I no longer have any shoulder to rely on when I cry. Abi has been a strong shoulder for me. But I can barely count of him when I am particularly mad at him right? hehe. The only person on my mind is a friend but I don't feel like bothering her since she has her own family too. And yes I sorta miss whining to her. Nyeh.

I'd say my life is becoming different at the moment. There are quite lots of changes. Well, change is a must in phases of life. Unlike last times, the phases where I kept on comparing my life in pre uni and working life, training life and after training life..this time I can't figure out whether I am liking the changes or not.  I will just say I wish quite the same things any normal person would one. And I kind of facing stuffs that people normally do when they are married. I am not talking about Abi and me alone. It is broad. Like super broad. Lol. Work, family and yada yada. ;)

Alright, I better stop with the beat-about-the-bush talk. Right, it is less than a month before 2014 ends. Time flies super fast. Well I somehow got my early year's hope true right? 2014 indeed has been a memorable one indeed.Not just because of getting married but my mom too. She has been diagnosed with acute kidney failure last time. She was admitted a week before my solemnization. Things were so chaotic and I broke down for countless times. And yes it is true when they say you'd see your 'true; people when you in difficulties. I do know now. :) My mom... she actually is the only reason that stops me from kicking my sister out of the house. She takes her side.. well more.. and well.. I don't have the heart to see her getting herself tired. I wish my sister KNOWS this. Seriously, how could she ignore the fact mom has been tired and sick because of her too. She just knows how to point finger at others. She barely helps my mom with laundry and cooking. Sigh. Seriously. You are that HOPELESS and USELESS young lady.

That's it for now ;)