1ST 2014's UPDATE!

Hi and Assalamualaikum. This is my very first update in 2014. and though quite belated, Happy New Year! I wish and wish 2014 would bring more joys and meaningful moments compared to last year. I can only hope and wish.

Right. I have been feeling.. emm yes again, quite unstable. Lol. I am being selfish and quite unreasonable. I know that I do not control things and I cannot make things happen the way I want them to be. Sigh. I just wish I can feel okay.

Abi has been occupied with National Day practice. and our routines are affected and I hate getting my routine things affected. I know he is trying to fit me in his busy schedule. Sigh. I just do not like it when I can't be sure about things. Like when will I see him again, like when we are spending time together again. those 'inda dapats' are just frustrating. I do not like waiting.

I wish and I really wish I do not depend this much on him. I cling so much. Sigh.

Anyway, Kaka Nurul is having her solemization event this coming Sunday. I wish everything will be well. and I sincerely hope she would be happy. I know she is not into the whole thing but I sincerely hope she would find some peace and happiness.

And I need to get a grip. be happy Yuhana. Your happiness should solely depends on you.

Abi, I miss you! :(((

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