reasons to live.

the title is very much dramatic yet it is indeed inspiring right? hehe. Lol ness. Alright, good good things so far.. well, we finished our external exam on Thursday and the result was announced earlier. Alhamdullilah I got an A for my written and B for my clinical assessment. I could not expect more :D

And somehow i am bit satisfied with myself that though the break up thingy happened just a week before my exam and i seriously thought i would not make it back then, i eventually managed to get good grades. Alhamdullilah and somehow now i see the break up thingy was indeed for GOOOD. And yes now i am saying i am not regretting to lose him. not now that i knew bits of the things he said to my usu. seriously i would never have thought any guy would be that... well such a coward and 'cheap' to say those things to my usu. i totally totally felt betrayed when i found that out and when i know some more stuffs he said i just can't help to think that he is such a loser. seriously dear, you are not the guy i said 'yes' to a year ago. and really, goodluck with the amway thingy :) dreaming does not usually harm but too much it will indeed, so yeah goodluck sweetheart :) I was totally a damn fool for staying and not leaving any sooner. all those tears, misery moments and all those hopeless hopes that things would get better in times are not worth it. seriously. yup i get my wake up call now. i shall not let myself be treated in such way. it was wrong to trust you dear :) damn wrong :)

May one day you will get both of your feet on the ground again and live rationally. i won't doa kan for karma thingy for you, really what good would it be though you get what you deserve but you do not learn anything from it? so yeah, goodluck :) i mean this in the most loving way. Not! :)

Tehee, alright i'm done ^^

once again alhamdullilah for the result :)

Comments

  1. Viviyannie1 May 2011 at 04:55

    *thumbs up* See, you're doing better already. Alhamdulillah~ :D

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  2. ct-Yuhana2 May 2011 at 08:23

    thanks dear hehe i am, im no longer crying and sad, but the thing is i am kind of.. well, not satisfied atm. he owes me :) hehe, anyhow, i rather be mad than sad :) ^^

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  3. Viviyannie2 May 2011 at 08:26

    about that, serahkan saja rah Tuhan. yg penting, kau redha. hehe.

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  4. ct-Yuhana6 May 2011 at 12:25

    thank you vie. Insya Allah slowly i wil x. Huhu. Thanks for bein there for me..

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  5. Eiffahh9 May 2011 at 20:41

    CONGRATESSS for the A and B!!! bah bila ko keraja.. I need my teeth cleaned asap. But please becareful. HAHAHA. Jk. =p

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  6. ct-Yuhana11 May 2011 at 06:59

    haha thanks zar! haha, for gusi clinic nya on every mon, bh banarrr? aku bleh bg appointment nie? haha. no worries, i'd treat ur teeth well. *evil smirk. kidding:P

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