get up, get up!

I was reading articles on fluoride and randomly went through my album in fb and i came across with Dad's very last picture and... i feell kind of... weird... to be precise i can't truly decide what i feel. i feel sad... not sad in way it feels like my heart is being stabbed... i just feel like.. getting up? i mean how could i forget the pain of losing this man, nothing could hurt more than losing him right? and how could i let anyone other than him makes me feel as if it is the end if the world whenever things come up. how could i be so silly?

I'm not saying life would have been truly better if he is still around. honestly, it would have been truly different and frankly speaking i might have not prefer it but still... sigh, i don't know what am i trying to say here..

Just always remember Yuh, nothing should hurt you more than losing this man, nothing. and no one should be the biggest reason to feel as if it is the end of the world. do not make the same scenario twice.

ironic, how could i manage to be strong when i lost my dad but not some other person? that is truly ironic and bitterly unacceptable...

Comments

  1. AZ.13's7 April 2011 at 07:01

    you're strong.. huggggg.. :')

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  2. ct-Yuhana14 April 2011 at 06:27

    thanks, i love u guys... i'm sorry that i cant control my sadness at times..

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  3. Viviyannie17 April 2011 at 07:41

    I LOVE THIS POST! :D

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  4. ct-Yuhana19 April 2011 at 18:19

    danke :D and i need not to just say them but truly put some real actions :))

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